All for one

I think I finally figured out a small piece of the world while burying my head under a pillow tonight. The opposite sex is sure interesting and a little frustrating.

Here I am, happy with my present lifestyle of work, home and making new friends. And meeting their delicious brother. Damn, I fell fast for the kid, but I'm trying to keep composure.

So, I've got a love interest. Good for me! I was starting to wonder… But now I worry that the next time I see Dakota I might take a bite, and will it me or him that is in more danger.

And if that isn't enough conflict bouncing around in my head and heart, I have a suspicion that drama is coming at me in TWO other directions. After 3 months of work, all of a sudden I'm starting to feel the press of male attention from a nice guy who is a year younger than me, and a man 11 years my senior. I'm feeling okay with the focus, just because I know nothing is serious at the moment, but I can't be involved with a coworker. I fear the drama and the awkwardness that would follow. If I am not careful I could get into a sticky situation.

Why are they coming out of the woodwork now? I think it is because I am becoming a part of the store. I'm not the new girl anymore. I'm still a mystery but I am available for examination. Personally I think that both of my coworkers have too much baggage for my taste. Nice guy has a child and my senior… I have no idea about him. I'm not interested in them like I am Dakota. The only thing is that he is three years younger than me, but at least he isn't ELEVEN!

I wonder if I'm exuding a pheromone because I'm lusting for a guy. I'm a virgin, but could it be possible I'm giving off a feeling to the opposite sex?

Could it be… am I actually making assumptions about the attentiveness just because of my own awareness of my own sensibilities? Gasp!